Hello fellow bookworms 📝 As I teased in my Wrapup, I failed Camp NaNo this April, but as this is stuff for a longer post, I decided to make a separate one. So, for me this is the first time ever that I failed anything NaNo related. That is not to say that there is anything wrong with that, I just wanted to mention it here as it had a bigger impact on me. I tracked minutes this time around and after doing it again, I’m convinced that this just doesn’t work for me no matter how hard I try. Tracking words for revision didn’t make as much as sense as tracking time for me, but I just work so much better if I have a wordcount to reach than a time count. I feel like I can always thrive to write more, but with time it depends so much on how you use it and I don’t get extra points if I work really hard in my designated time – if that makes sense. I won’t be participating in Camp NaNo in July as I will be super busy, but fingers crossed, I can participate in NaNoWriMo in November 🙏
Before I go on I just wanted to thank Sophie @ sophiexli for inviting me to join her cabin, it was great how friendly everyone was and quickly got talking! Thank you for having me, even though I wasn’t this active during Camp 💕
Why I quit Camp NaNo
I was very busy with classes and my internship. I mean I knew that before going into Camp NaNo, but I had no idea how much it would effect and stress me out. I started having classes again the second week of April (I was on vacation before that, meaning even less time to do anything writing related) and the week after that my internship hit full force. I was basically busy Monday through Friday and had 4 papers to write that I needed to start squeezing into my free time. All in all, it was very overwhelming for me, because the workload was so much more than the last semester.
In addition to that or maybe because of it I was blocked when it came to writing. I could have still made time for writing even with everything going on, but the truth is that I didn’t feel like writing or more accurately revising. Especially as I have never edited a WIP before it made for such a daunting task and I didn’t have the energy and heart to tackle it, even with my plan of revision in place. Every time I sat down to do it, I was really blocked, and I could have still done something (I did try some things and made some sort of progress).
However, I didn’t want to burn myself out, that’s why I didn’t push myself further to complete Camp NaNo. I was afraid that I would start resenting my story if I forced myself to edit it or that I would edit so badly it would all be for nothing. Giving myself the permission to stop was probably the best thing to do, because trying to regain my writing motivation was more important than winning.
What I actually managed to get done
It wasn’t much, as I quit trying to do anything after two weeks, but I didn’t want to gloss over what I managed to do nevertheless 😊 First off, I listened to writing podcasts more specifically 88 Cups of Tea, which is really good! It’s not so heavy on the craft and rather could be described as an interview/talk between an author and the host, who creates such a nice atmosphere in the podcast. I kind of procrastinated revising with this activity, but it was so inspiring hearing about the author’s stories about how they discovered writing and managed to get published. It really impressed me how some never gave up and almost always took different careers first, it made me feel better about myself, especially as so many highlights that they didn’t get published in their 20s and that’s okay. I would highly recommend this podcast; it was a great motivation!
Furthermore, I fixed my main character’s Arc & some plot problems. This is technically a much later step in my revision plan, but I had written down some notes on what I knew needed fixing and started writing up some solutions. I knew my main character’s Arc was all wrong and had to be adjusted to the new theme that was stronger and better suited for the story. Then I noticed several other problems, especially with some plotlines, that I brainstormed solutions for. However, there is so much more to be done with this WIP, it is far from revised yet.
When it comes to my minute count, I already reduced it from 1800 minutes to 900 minutes, because I figured out, I absolutely could not do 60 minutes a day. But even with a daily target of 30 minutes I ultimately did fail to reach my goal. Here are my stats!
Future Writing Plans?
To be honest with you, I don’t think I will get done much writing wise before my summer break Mid July, because I’m still going to be super busy and probably stressed with everything that is going on. That makes me sad, because I feel like a fraud, like I’m not a real writer, because I’m not doing much writing 😥 I feel like I should make it a priority, but I’m in no headspace to work on my story right now and fear that forcing it will make frustrated and bitter about writing in general 🙁 I just have a lot of conflicted emotions about my future writing plans, because so much will be going on and I feel a bit overwhelmed jugglign eerything and fighting off the writing doubts.
However, I really want to Finish the first round of revision before October, because I finished this WIP in April 2018 and it has been a year during which I have been meaning to revis it, but never actually got around to doing that. I’m still following Susan Dennard’s revision guide, that is actually very good, I just need to actually get around to finally going it. Revision is very new to me, so that might be why I’m struggling a bit. Another top priority for me is to Structure/Edit the Outline for book 2 that I wrote during the last NaNoWriMo! I just wrote it down stream of consciousness, so I need to structure it in Scrivener and maybe heavily edit it to, because the revision might change the ending of book 1, impacting everything that comes after it.
You’ll definitely see another update from me in the future! Until then: keep writing, I believe in you 💗 🌺 If you ever need some motivation Madeline has a fantastic post called Dear “Aspiring” Authors // How to Stop Aspiring & Start Being 💛
How did you do with Camp NaNo? What are your current writing plans? 📝